Change

A favoured author Milan Kundera observes in The Book of Laughter and Forgetting that it is the people with normal, uneventful lives that feel the need to write on their bland existence. He cites as an example the population of writers in France compared to Iran. I found that astute observation funny, more so the explicit example he gives.

My thoughts and opinions on change I admit are quite run-of-the-mill. I do not like being 'normal'. Change; I have change on the mind because I applied for a new job. I only take chances were I am sure I will win. My actual win ratio is not as great as I would like, that means I can still take chances and the outcome continues to be unknown. Dribble.

I enjoy my work. I know what I am doing(took a minute to get here). I confidently walk into the workplace and am sure I can handle most of what the night throws at me. Working at night I get a lovely little pay differential, it is quiet (just a co-worker and I), I can work on school and a few other things in between sleep during the day. It is all working well for me. There is enough distance between my wife and I we love to see each other, there is no familiarity contempt. The new job would change all of this. I could get a pay hike for it, but I don't know that. My shift will change to daytime and all my night perks are gone.

It is difficult to change when one is comfortable where they are. Uncertainty weakens one's resolve to initiate change, especially performance oriented people like myself. Before something changes I want to ensure the change will increase my status, make me look amazing while in transit and will be enjoyable by me and anyone along for the ride. Life is never this good! Not ever. So I go where opportunities open. I squeeze in where I need to and sit when a seat is available. Making the most of every chance for I do not know when another will arise. I am essentially an opportunity scavenger. Pounce on what comes up in reach until I can make my own.

I am almost 30, I may not have my life figured out but I have a plan. For now.

"That'll do pig. That'll do"