The fallacy of Satisfaction

Galatians 5:17 - For the desires of the flesh are against the Spirit, and the desires of the Spirit are against the flesh, for these are opposed to each other, to keep you from doing the things you want to do.

Satisfaction is noun describing the pleased feeling that follows something that you did, and/or the act of providing what is needed.

The Bible is wholly true and always accurate. In light of this fact I have concluded that mankind will never be satisfied. A semblence of satisfaction likely exists in the utterly depraved or the absolutely Christ-like. For the rest of us when the flesh is pleased we are tormented by the Spirit of God and/or our conscience. These two will ever remind me of my follies and this will grieve me and ushers out what pleased feeling I have in response to whatever my actions are. On the good days if my spirit is pleased then my flesh in response is offended and makes it a point to remind me, it is so bold as to say, "That is enough Godliness for today, you should not do too much. You are not a fanatic, besides if you are too good they will all see when you mess things up." The pleasure of the flesh grates against the spirit and the happiness of the spirit grieves the flesh so I am never satisfied, I am never pleased by my actions nor can I provide what is needed.

Now for the utterly depraved I would posit that they have so scarred their conscience and are so resistant to the Spirit of God what for me is a contest is for them a declaration of war by a worm. The same applies for the absolutely righteous, they have so ignored their flesh it is emaciated and so starved it cannot squeak in protest. Is there a threshold then? Because however righteous I have become I have still been able to hear the displeasure of my flesh, and my wallowing in vice however far I go I feel my conscience scratching at my eyeballs..."I can't get no satisfaction" and I never will. 

Interim pastor woes.

Someone asked me today what our church's 'testimony' is. We have been in a state of apparent decline since 2008 so it seems to them like we were just 'hanging in there' for things to get better. Maybe we are, but I want us to be more than that. My burden and my prayer is that the Lord would lead us to do more. More Bible studying, more prayer, more fellowship, more ministry from the individual through the couples and families upto the entire church level, all 18 of us!  We are not in a holding pattern until a pastor  comes, we should keep going. Keep working on our own growth and the growth of the body. Unfortunately most of us are very insulated from non-believers, our lives are so far removed from people who do not know the Lord if we were to invite someone we knew to church, we would be borrowing them from another church. So we have to have a better testimony and one that interfaces with those without Christ! After explaining this to them, I asked them to pray and ask the Lord what their place is in the better testimony. Nehemiah had men build a part of the wall of Jerusalem in front of their house, so I asked where is your part in the wall?
I am the interim pastor of a tiny church. I do the job because the elders asked me to and I am convinvced the Lord has raised me up for a time such as this, but am 90% sure I am not the permanent pastor. This job has allowed me to stop asking God to help me to be useful int the kingdom. Every Sunday I am useful and some days of the week too as I minister to the flock. The sick thing is, if I was not studying for sermons most of the week I would be watching tv, playing vidoe games, working out and trying to cycle through reading one novel, one non-fiction. So why do I think so much of the day I hand it off?