Wednesday, December 22, 2010

First semester - Check

I completed my first semester of graduate school.  I was successful too.  It was painful and exhausting, but I am so excited about the next one.  It is a little sick.  I guess I do like pain.  My thoughts are muddled about everything else.  I finished one, I made it.  Praise the Lord.  Praise the Lord!
Merry Christmas.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Confession

I am so mindful of the sinner I am that I lose sight of Grace. I am unhappy and without trust.  As a result, in practice I forget God and live with His Word behind me some of the time.
It's as if life is my teenage girlfriend, and is God my parents - I spend more time, effort and thought on life than I do on God.  I will easily disobey Him for her sake, though I still live in His house and want to be called by His name.
The vanity lies in the amount of effort I put to drawing close to God and when the sinner thing comes up I get tangled and I focus on life, which frustrates me so I go back and forth. It is tiring.  There is no progress in either pursuit.