Conversation at work (via e-mail)

I do not know about you, but I do not fully appreciate the quality people the Lord has placed in my life.  I, for a long time looked upon this as a curse: I do not typically pick my friends, it is as if they are picked for me.  The people I would like to be my friends typically do not like me at all.  People I was iffy about, and some I plainly did not want to be seen with end up becoming the most precious people I have ever been privileged to know.  Just another assurance that my life is not my own to spend as I please, I have been bought with a price and to God's glory I sometimes go where He leads.  Most times I am dragged where He leads, and realise my benefit when I am there. If it is true that "you learn from your mistakes, then I should be a genius..."
Thanks Karen.


one of my patients "smoked one pack of cigarettes for many years"

A pack a day or one pack lasted for many years????????? 

How are you this AM….. I don't want to be here.

his record says, "smoked one pack of cigarettes for many years"

I am sure he meant a pack a day for many years, but I prefer to think he was trying to get into the Guinness book of world records for the slowest smoker/longest lasting pack.  he got COPD, pneumonia and rubbish lungs instead. even though he smoked only one pack. 

That's a weird way of writing it….  He must of gotten COPD while trying to finish the pack.

Some people smoke 1-3 pks per day… I couldn't begin to afford smoking addiction.  It would kill me to purchase one pack…at some places one pack is twice the cost of a gallon of gas.

Just noticed that I am not working very hard...

Why,  you have been here since early this AM

I am like the guy smoking one pack in years…here for 4 hours and did very little…BLAST!  I struck several things off my To Do List though.  Oh well, guess I am that good huh.

I do it all so fast I do not feel it.  Yeah, I am so sharp.

Wow… no brag, just fact huhhhhh

Has your boss checked in this week?

no.  she is having too much fun on vacation.  I think she checks in when she is bored…or at least I hope she does.

Karen, I am a lazy punk!  That's all there is to it. I do not strike myself as a hard worker. Man; other lazies are rich and here I am lazy and making a 40hr a week show of it.  Life's like that ainit?

YOU ARE NOT LAZY….here you are about to start graduate school and you think you are lazy….NOT TRUE

means to an end…the ends keep me on point!  motivated does not necessarily mean un-lazy. if left to my own devices I would honestly rot in bed.  growing up I was implanted with an amazing capacity to feel guilty. I am really quite lazy, I just would rather work than feel guilty.

its very sick and twisted if you ask me!


I appreciate the work ethic my parents worked so hard to instil in me.  It sucks (from here) that I learned instead to work hard enough to please my superiors and so that I do not feel guilty for 'wasting time.'  The flip side is I cannot relax; everything I do for rest leaves me feeling wasteful.  I pray for pure motives.