Interim pastor woes.

Someone asked me today what our church's 'testimony' is. We have been in a state of apparent decline since 2008 so it seems to them like we were just 'hanging in there' for things to get better. Maybe we are, but I want us to be more than that. My burden and my prayer is that the Lord would lead us to do more. More Bible studying, more prayer, more fellowship, more ministry from the individual through the couples and families upto the entire church level, all 18 of us!  We are not in a holding pattern until a pastor  comes, we should keep going. Keep working on our own growth and the growth of the body. Unfortunately most of us are very insulated from non-believers, our lives are so far removed from people who do not know the Lord if we were to invite someone we knew to church, we would be borrowing them from another church. So we have to have a better testimony and one that interfaces with those without Christ! After explaining this to them, I asked them to pray and ask the Lord what their place is in the better testimony. Nehemiah had men build a part of the wall of Jerusalem in front of their house, so I asked where is your part in the wall?
I am the interim pastor of a tiny church. I do the job because the elders asked me to and I am convinvced the Lord has raised me up for a time such as this, but am 90% sure I am not the permanent pastor. This job has allowed me to stop asking God to help me to be useful int the kingdom. Every Sunday I am useful and some days of the week too as I minister to the flock. The sick thing is, if I was not studying for sermons most of the week I would be watching tv, playing vidoe games, working out and trying to cycle through reading one novel, one non-fiction. So why do I think so much of the day I hand it off?