We decided, my wife and I with some input from our Bible reading at the time, that we are in the Wilderness. We have skipped forward, it is not important how we got here. The thing is, that boat I thought I was on that may have been going the wrong way, is actually in the Wilderness. Now late last year I decided I would not look away, I would not flinch but take it all in. I AM DOING IT!!
It is not easy, today was probably the easiest, I got home and instead of sitting on the couch to watch violent TV I resolved to listen to the same two albums I listened to at work, song of people in hardship and reaching for the Lord. And then I have come to write about it.
Things are tough still. I ask about the boat often, just in case I am going the wrong way. For one thing that works out, it seems something else unravels. Its frustrating, its scary and its infuriating.
But the Lord is in Heaven, upon His throne. None of this is new to Him. It is not a surprise, He has known about it and longs for me to come and say, "Daddy, I do not know why this is happening to me. But I trust You and submit to Your authority. So come what may, I am Yours today and forever."
Teach me. Help me. Forgive me. Comfort me.
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