I am so mindful of the sinner I am that I lose sight of Grace. I am unhappy and without trust. As a result, in practice I forget God and live with His Word behind me some of the time.
It's as if life is my teenage girlfriend, and is God my parents - I spend more time, effort and thought on life than I do on God. I will easily disobey Him for her sake, though I still live in His house and want to be called by His name.
The vanity lies in the amount of effort I put to drawing close to God and when the sinner thing comes up I get tangled and I focus on life, which frustrates me so I go back and forth. It is tiring. There is no progress in either pursuit.
It's as if life is my teenage girlfriend, and is God my parents - I spend more time, effort and thought on life than I do on God. I will easily disobey Him for her sake, though I still live in His house and want to be called by His name.
The vanity lies in the amount of effort I put to drawing close to God and when the sinner thing comes up I get tangled and I focus on life, which frustrates me so I go back and forth. It is tiring. There is no progress in either pursuit.
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