The apostle Paul speaks a lot on running the race. There is a lot of spiritual application in training for a race. Many things I have recorded that I will not repeat. Here is a practical report:
I ran today in pain from previous runs. The goal was 10 miles. I am training for 13,1 miles on my birthday. I did not make 3. My body just could not carry me. I tried and tried. My wife ran with me and I did not want her to see me quit. I threw in the towel. When I stopped running, I could not restart. The hill, the whole road pummeled me today.
As I ran, I listened to the Psalms and thought of my spiritual state - in pain, discouraged and really just ready to break down. Instead of finding comfort and encouragement in the Word, I was happy for David. I just could not relate. My story seemed different. The pain of hope and desires that are not coming to fruition was too much to bear. My body stopped and my spirit did too. We both cried out, even to the Lord and I hope He heard.
There is so much I do not get, and I will take one day at a time. I will be strong maybe victorious some of those days. His strength sustains me. There will be days when I cannot stand. I will fall to my knees and cry like a child, as I did today. And even then, His strength sustains me.
"I am not blameless before You. I speak only because I believe Your Word, I shall ever approach Your throne to Your welcome, I speak to You now not as Master and Almighty Go; but as Daddy. I am tired. Please carry me on Your shoulders. So much is hanging and You are silent, distant even. You aren't doing anything. Please, please...Help!"
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